March 30, 2013
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I’m So Heartbroken
I have been so busy here lately, and by the time I get home, I don’t feel like blogging. Tonight I am making myself blog because it is so important for me to journal. This week we lost our dear friend Eilena. Remember me blogging about her passing out at church. Well, she had been back to church and was even there week before last. She must have gotten sick because she wasn’t there last Sunday. She told her son ever since she had passed out at church, she hadn’t been the same. Her son was on a business trip but he told her when he got back, he would take her to the doctor. She said she didn’t want to go anywhere anymore. Not even to the doctor. (I think she was discouraged) Her son told her as long as she had breath in her body, he would try to get her help. Isn’t that such a loving thing to say?!!
Come to find out, she ended up in the hospital Tuesday. Wednesday morning at 5:30, she passed away. We are completely heartbroken!! It was such a shock! Her son said he really didn’t know what happened, but her heartbeat got really low and then she passed away. Even her nurse was shocked. She was such a strong woman, I expected her to live to be 100. God had a better plan. She is happy with her husband Gene in heaven and we are dealing with an awful, heartbreaking loss.
Tonight Kevin, Martha, and I had to sing at her funeral. Jared had to play. She always loved to hear Jared play and us sing. It was the hardest funeral we have ever had to sing. As soon as Martha and I saw her, we broke down. I kept thinking this can’t be right. She looked as if she could speak to us. She really looked wonderful. So, so hard!!!
Eilena was always such a strong woman. She was at church faithfully–even when I would have stayed home. She was so talkative and lovable. Her memory was better than mine. Tonight one of the preachers was talking about how strong she was. She told him she would mop her floors walking with her walker and pushing the mop along. Her washer and dryer were downstairs. She would put the dirty clothes in a pillow case and throw them down the steps and then go down and wash. Different ones had offered to help her wash her clothes but she refused. She talked about holding on to the porch railing and weeding her flowers. She was so independent. Ahhhh….I loved her so much!!! I keep trying to tell myself that she is happy. Having her here would make me happy, but *she* is much happier in paradise.
Tomorrow the women of our church are cooking to serve the family after the burial. I am going thru the motions, but it is really hard to accept that she isn’t here. She will be greatly missed.
Comments (4)
Oh Susan! I am so sorry for your loss! Praying for family and friends of Eilena. She sounds like she was a wonderful woman. My heart is with you and I’m lifting you up in prayer.
@SealedbyGrace - Thank you wonderful friend!!! I truly appreciate the prayers!
it sounds like she was a wonderful testimony for the women in her church and life. God obviously used her for His purpose and He wanted her back
sometimes its hard to accept the fact that we are only passing through (thankfully so). thoughts and prayers with you and her family for comfort–karen
Oh, Susan, I am so very sorry for the loss of your friend, Eilena. Praying for you and her family. It is hard when we feel the loss so badly to realize she is in Paradise with Him. Love you, my friend.